I can’t believe that in exactly 20 days, I’ll enter in a new world- the world I’m afraid to face- COLLEGE. Yes, I’m excited but at the same time, I’m afraid. I’m afraid of facing my professors, I’m afraid of meeting strangers who will eventually become my friends, I’m afraid of what my subjects will bring me and most of all, I’m afraid that I might actually be left behind in any way. As you know, most of my blockmates came from science high schools and I know that they are fond of studying difficult science and math subjects and I admit that I’m not. I’m not used to study THAT hard because as what I’ve experience during my HS, my teachers were just spoon feeding us all the things/lessons we need to learn as for college, I know that it would be a tough battle since our professors expect us to be “fast learners” since we are studying in THE University of the Philippines. But wth, I prayed for this school, I prayed for my admission to my course and it was all given to me by our great GOD. I know that God believe in my capabilities that’s why he had given me this rare opportunity. I know that he sturdy believe in me and I also believe that I can make it through- with his guidance. I just hope that my FAITH will be bigger than my FEARS.

I’m now officially 17 and I feel so old.  :| :P Hahaha! So I had this simple birthday celebration at my house with the AWESOMES and it was a blaaasssttt! :>

So we played the “HEART ATTACK”, a card game and man, it was awesome- like us. :) Chibe was getting pretty darn “good” at it but at the end of the game, it is PJ who crawl in between our legs. 

Overall, my 17th birthday celebration was one of the BEST birthdays I’ve ever had since it’s my first time to celebrate with my friends- my closest, best and awesomest friends in the whole world. Now, as we go in our own ways, I wish that our friendship that was build with love and care will be strong enough to keep us close together forever. <3

Again, with all my heart, I want to thank you guys for coming to my birthday and I wish you all, the best in our college life! I love you guys and I’ll miss you so much! <3

P.S. I just want to share picture of my gifts from them because believe it or not, it’s my first time receiving gifts this many for my birthday for the last 10 years. :) 

Habang nag-aaksaya ako ng oras dito sa Tumblr, may nakahagip ng aking pansin. Isang post. Nakakabighaning post. Napakagandang post -ATA? Napaka-mapaglaro ang mga salita sa post na iyon. Halos wala akong naintindihan dahil wala sa aking bokabolaryo ang mga ginamit niyang salita. Hindi ko siya sinisisi dahil malawak ang bokabolaryo niya pero may limitasyon naman din ang paggamit ng mga mabulaklak na salita. Minsan gumagamit lang ng mga mabulaklak na salita ang mga tao upang maging ‘maganda’ at ‘magaling’ ang kalalabasan ng kanilang post. Wala akong sinasabing masama sa paggamit ng mabulaklak na salita dahil ito ay nakakataas ng IQ at ng bokabolaryo ngunit, subalit, datapwat, isipin natin na laging may limitasyon ang lahat. Kaya lang naman ako ng post ng ganito dahil napansin ko na sa isang pangungusap niya halos lahat ng salita ay mabulaklak. Nagbabasa ako paminsan minsan ng mga libro  at may mga salita duon na hindi ko naiintindihan ngunit naiintindihan ko ang nais maipahiwatig ng manunulat. Siguro nga kasalanan ko dahil ang baba ng aking bokabolaryo pagdating sa banyangang salita na Ingles.

I was suppose to blog how intense the story I was reading on WATTPAD but turns out I shall blog how unfair my mother is. You see I was asking her politely while doing my best to be charming and all about tomorrow’s event because PJ and the gang invited me to have bicycle sessions with them tomorrow at 3:30pm. I was hoping that she would ask questions like: where would it be held, who’s coming with me and until what time will I be out. But she answered me with a big NO (HINDI!) in a angry voice. My face turned into a bitch like face because I was pissed like yeah. Then she saw my face and gave me the questions I was hoping for. She asked me where would it be held with a nice motherly voice and I didn’t answer back. I just said to her that if she doesn’t want me to go, she should just said it in a nice way and not the way I would be pissed and bitch and silent for the rest of the night. Now she knows I was really pissed and angry because I was dead silent while typing this post. I’m moody when I know I was right at some point. I get pissed and angry when I know I didn’t do anything wrong and get sermons that I don’t deserved. And for their sake, they shall never talk to me if I’m really at my boiling point because I’m sick of pointless arguments because I know I will be -forever, the bad guy.

P.S. I’m a teenager. I get pissed, I get angry, my patience is a shit and I get confuse all the time. Bare with me please? 

I know i’m weak. I’m not a strong christian. I stumble down many times. I am losing my own battle.   I was foolish in the past and I was even more foolish today. I’m ashamed of what I’ve become- I’m calling my self a Christian yet I’m not acting like one. I felt of letting go of God’s hand and thought of going my own way. But God don’t want that. He wants me to fight my own battle and win it for his sake. God don’t want me to let go of him instead he wants me to hold it even tighter.God is always there. He will never leave me nor forsake me. I just need to clear my mind and reflect on what I did and PRAY.

Dearest Jesus, I was foolish these past few days. I was won over by temptation and didn’t realize soon enough. Today Lord God, I ask for your humble forgiveness. Please forgive me with everything I’ve done, I thought that were not pleasing in your eyes. I’m not perfect my Lord Jesus but you always know that. And you know that no matter what challenges I face, I will still be holding on you because in your hands I belong and you’ll never let me go. Dearest Jesus, there are many temptations around me. So please be with me as I fight these temptations. Please Lord, I know you’ll never leave me. I’m becoming weak and please, help me be strong so that I’ll never let go of you. In Jesus name I pray.

AMEN.

AT LAST AFTER 5 LONG YEARS THE METALS THAT WERE PLACED IN MY TEETH ARE ALL GONE! =)))

I enrolled last friday but as usual, my tumblr crashed so I’ll just blog it naaww =))) And I know no one care but still ~~~~

• We arrived there at 7:15.
• The line for the registrar was asdfghjkl long.
• The resgistrar would open at 8:30.
• I met people in the line named: Angelica, Selina, and Jeanina.
• I waited for 3 hours in the line until my turn arrive.
• I was put in Block 22.
• I lined up for re-assessment. No line actually. <yey!>
• I paid the student fund in the CPHSC table.
• I saw our schedule but we’re not allowed to post it for safety purposes.
• I line up again for the cashier for the paying of the tuition fee.
• But they were having their lunch so I didn’t go anywhere bec. my sit might be occupied by the others so my mommy bought me lunch so I had my lunch there. <magulo ba?>
• I met people in the line named: Rachel and Cathy and they were really nice.
• I had my ID picture taken and after 2 minutes, I already have my ID. Hands down to UP. =)))
• We bought a UP shirt! \m/
• We went to the college of dentistry for my report cards.
• We went home. :)

I had my physical examination last thursday and I didn’t blog about it because I’m so tired but now I’ll blog it! :> (As if you care =) )

• We went there at around 12:00 and we’ve arrived at around 1:00.
• Because went down the jeep early, we walked for at least 10 minutes. -___-
• We can’t find the health sciences building so we asked at least 4 guards to lead us the way.
• Finally we had arrived the building and the line for the PExamination was endless. -__-
• They said to us that we need to go to the College of Dentristry so that my dental certificate would be validated. The building was along Pedro Gil st. which was asdfghjkl far from our current place.
• We went on and on and realized we had gone the wrong way since the street’s name we were walking was Padre Faura not Pedro Gil. -___-
• We saw my grandpa’s sister and asked if she knew the way to the COD since she works in PGH and said we shall wait for her ‘coz she’ll have to go and see someone.
• We waited for 20 mins. then she arrived and she had led us the way.
• The problem was that she had led us the way to the GARBAGE CENTER-like not the COD Building. -___-
• Finally after a long walk, we had arrived at the building. 
• There in that building, there were friendly FBC or Freshmen Block Coordinators which told us the prestigious University Rule that STUDENTS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO JOIN OR BE ORIENTED BY ANY FRATERNITY OR SORORITY DURING THEIR FIRST YEAR IN THE UNIVERSITY and they helped us in processing our papers.
• The woman who would validated got angry because she should be leaving at 12pm but she can’t because there are many freshies who were still soming even though the dental was up to 12pm only. ( FIY we didn’t know that we have to validate my dental certificate since there is nothing written in general instruction. Selfish much ate? :| )
• To sum it up, I was the fourth to the last  who had PExam and I spend my time in UP for at least 7 hours. Good thing they have the FBC who entertained me while I wait for my turn.

I love this beautiful birthday girls :> I also love how they appreciate my little effort for them.

Lorraine a.k.a. TWIN -My choir mate; the best ballad singer I know.

Anya -My review mate; we met last summer during our review in UPLINK. :)

ayoko na mag english dahil napakahirap iexpress sa english but here it is. tumawag kanina yung UP tapos sabi nila na may one slot pa daw sa Public Health and dahil ako daw yung may pinkahighest na chu chu among the DPWAS students, I got the slot! alam niyo ba super duper pangarap ko yung course na yun as in dati pa pero unfortunately, nacut ako sa quota nung UPCAT but now, Jesus is so good talaga. :’( i always pray na siya na ang bahala sa akin at ilead niya ako sa path kung saan niya ako gusto lumakad… i don’t know why i deserve this kind of blessing basta ang alam ko lang God is always there for me… :”’(

Mapagpala naming ama, diyos na makapangyarihan sa lahat, mahal na panginoong hesus, maraming maraming salamat po sa pagpapalang ito na pinagkaloob niyo po sa akin. patawarin niyo po ako kung minsan hindi ko po nasusunod ang inyong kalooban at kung minsan, nawawalan po ako ng tiwala sa inyo. mahal na panginoon, kung ito po talaga ang pinili niyong daan para sa akin, pinapanalangin ko po na huwag niyo po akong pabayaan sa aking paglalakad sa daan na ito. pagkalooban niyo po ako ng lakas at talino at huwag niyo po akong pababayaan na mawala sa inyo. ito lang po ang aking dalangin, sa matamis at makapangyarihang pangalan ni hesus. AMEN.

In my dream awhile ago, I was crying hard inside my old school’s CR because some people mess up with my faith and I have to cry so hard. Then my choirmaster appeared and hug me and then I woke up. Here’s the thing- when I woke up, tears were falling down my face and I immediately wipe it with my blanket. It’s just so so weird. It’s like I was really on it and I was the one controlling it…So this is what we call DREAMS DO COME TRUE- literally! >:) Hahaha! whatever, sorry bipolar. :P

*Frontplate- the part of the jeepney seen on the picture that’s says HOLY JESUS SAVES.

Awhile ago when we were heading to UP, I was thinking deeply while staring outside the jeepney. I don’t know why I always think when I go to UP. It has been a hobby for me but anyway… I was thinking about all my problems in life but while I was thinking & staring, 3 jeepneys simultaneously passed by that has a frontplates*, and there in those frontplates was written GOD RELATED MESSAGES like JESUS SAVES, GOD IS GREAT… and then when I look inside the jeepney we’re riding, I had read, GOD BLESS US, then I immediately prayed because I know that God is telling me something- that he is always with us no matter what; that he is always there for me. I know this maybe just a coincidental but I know it was God’s  way to talk to me.

Reflection: No matter where you are or where will you go, God is always with you. Never assume that God is not with you ‘coz as what was written in Hebrews 13:5

God has said “Never will I leave you; nor forsake you.”

God Bless you all.